Whoever said "time waits for no man" sure knew what he was talking about. As I look back over the past few months - wow, what a blur! I wish I could say it was a blur of writing and editing but my body and my tired brain know better than that. Sometimes, life really cuts into...well, life.
All the while, however, I may have been doing myself a favor. Time spent not writing recharged me. The whole time I felt I should have been writing, I was clearing out space to actually be able to write clearly when the time came.
Now that the time has arrived, I've really been at it. I've been working on some rewrites and the words have just flowed. The structure of the story really fell into place. I was moving around paragraphs and reorganizing chapters. You should have seen me (you would have been impressed) - I was like a word ninja.
Just wait until you read it.
I've recently been working on revising an old work. I wrote this novel several years ago and in the subsequent years have become a much better author. My challenge is to not lose the original tone of the novel, but at the same time improve upon the flow and language of the book. In reading through, what sounded good several years ago now seems choppy and there are a lot of what I now consider "unnecessary words."
More recently, I took a day off work which gave me a three day weekend (which was very nice). On that day, the rain came down severely - matching the announcement of a flash flood watch on the morning news. In other words, a great afternoon for a pot of coffee and my laptop to catch up on some writing.
Each novel I write is different in its approach. Some books I write better late at night. Some early in the morning. Some are written better in a particular seat in the house. But what is consistent is that music is my muse. What differs with this muse is the type of music. More about that in a moment...
I have also been working on my newest novel and during the writing for that, I decided to take a break and revise one of my older novels. Now, the new novel that I am writing tends to be written better during the morning. The novel that I am revising is an evening-writing book. Strange that I can rotate between both books but don't write as well during certain times of the day for that specific novel.
Now, back to music. Each of my books has a different type of music that fits the book. Iron Maiden, Linkin Park, and Eminem are a few of the influences on what you read with my work. One of my novels was written almost exclusively to Progressive House Music. What is unusual to me is that now that I am revising this novel, the music that inspires the rewrite is not the same music that I was listening to when I first wrote the book. This rewrite seems to channel more Metallica than anything.
To wrap up, I'll give some parting words inspired by my current muse. When the element to write is ideal, "nothing else matters."
I'd like to share something personal with you. The picture to the left is a shirt that I have had for
about twenty years. Some would wonder why one would keep a shirt for that long. Well, I'll tell you.
It's not the sentimental value of the shirt. It's true I first got the shirt when I was working for a sporting goods store during my first year in college. It's also true that I've worn this shirt just about every time I have worked out in the past twenty years. It's also true that the shirt has been used for basketball leagues, soccer games, afternoons on the lake, and probably a party or two.
The true value of the shirt is that the shirt is mine. It's the one thing that has lasted for twenty years of my life. So, I guess in some ways it has sentimental value, but I prefer to think of it as historical value. The shirt represents what I have been through. If you look, you'll see holes and rips in the shirt. Each of those holes and rips has a story behind it. You'll also notice the paint from where I was painting our first home as homeowners.
The shirt (and I realize how silly it is that I am romanticizing about a shirt) represents me. It is tough and has been through some conditions that may not have been the best. It represents commitment. It represents the type of character that I want to display - not a cosmetic, flashy shirt, but a shirt that has been forged by living life. This shirt shows that I have lived and have come through it all. The shirt is durable (even tenacious) and trustworthy. When I'm looking for a shirt to do whatever - change oil, mow the grass, play with my kids - that shirt is there. Just like me. I'm here and I'm alive. I live life everyday. My shirt is proof of that.
My shirt is my legacy.
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We had been on the road for about an hour when it happened. I had been warned about the town to which we were headed - a town called Safe Haven. It was said that people like us were not welcome. We had just rolled into town when I heard the first gunshot.
Pink mist surrounded my friend's head as his head snapped back.
His bike kept moving forward but he tumbled from the seat. His hands released the handles and he slipped to his left onto the road. I stopped quickly, jumped off, and ducked down behind my bike. I heard the second bullet pass over my head.
I was about thirty feet from my friend and I saw that it was over for him. He was lying prone on the concrete. His head had come to its final resting place on its left side. I could see the burned hole in his forehead and the exit wound in what used to be the back of his head.
I never asked to be a member of the Restless Dead. I was walking alone one night - I knew better than that - when I saw my neighbor. She looked sad and when she came towards me, she extended her arms like she wanted a hug. She used to watch me as a child and had comforted me many times. I wanted to return some of that kindness.
The embrace turned into a feeding frenzy on my neck.
I had been among the Restless Dead for four months. My friend had been part of the Restless Dead for only a few days. I had killed him once and now he was dead for a final time. It seems some of us are made for survival and some are not.
I feigned that I had been shot and I laid still until the two men with guns approached. I bit the man with the handgun on his calf, taking a chunk of jeans filled with calf muscle with me. The man fell to the ground screaming. His gun fell away and I would finish dealing with him in a moment.
The second man had a rifle. I knew it would take longer for him to swing his gun around and even then he might not get off a clean shot, which is why I chose the man with the handgun first. I took out the rifle man and then finished off the handgun man.
I said goodbye to my friend, loaded back up on the bike, and headed off down the road.
As I drove off, I glanced into my mirror and looked back at the two men who had killed my friend. At some point they would turn. Just two more additions to what had become my new life.
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All spleen jokes aside, the Restless Dead are like anyone else. We like sports and hiking in the woods and many other activities. We like to eat out as well, but unfortunately, the menu is where we differ from the general population.
I looked at my best friend since childhood. "Since it's just you and me, you wanna take a road trip?"
He grinned. "It's been a while since we did. Sounds great. Where are we going?"
"Well, we have a slight issue when it comes to driving. You know, rigor mortis and all. But we can ride."
"If we can't bend our knees well enough to drive, how are we going ride bikes? Besides, that's a bike ride - not much of a road trip."
"Follow me and I'll show you." I led him two blocks to a biker bar. "I didn't mean bicycles."
He looked at the motorcycles lining the front of the building. "Are you saying we should steal a couple of these?"
"Most of the people that these belong to are just like us. The majority of them have wandered off. Remember the three guys that had your girl pinned down in the alley? Three of these bikes belonged to those guys. I'd say after the way they treated her, they owe you."
He thought about it for a minute. I knew he'd see it my way. I wasn't wrong. He looked at me and smiled. "Let's go."
Two minutes later we were headed down the highway. Open pavement and open skies.
Eight hours later, the girl he was with finally turned. "How long does this take?" he had asked me while we were waiting.
I didn't want to tell him he might not have picked the smartest girl in the world to take out, so I simply answered, "It varies by person."
She got up from the ground and walked over to him. I could see what he saw in her. She was very attractive. (Unfortunately just not too bright.) I wasn't sure how she would react, but she didn't disappoint. She slugged him in the jaw with her right fist. His head didn't move and I doubt it was a very hard punch, but the effect of the punch was everything whether it actually hurt or not. He looked at her and started to apologize but she held up her hand and turned without giving him a chance to speak.
He watched her go. "Thanks a lot." he said to me after she had gone around a corner and disappeared from sight. "This is your fault. She was a hottie, and now she's gone."
I started to apologize, but knew it wouldn't mean much since the damage had already been done. Instead, I tried another tactic - honesty. "You're better off without her."
He was taken aback for a second. "What do you mean by that? Are you jealous that I was able to get a date with a girl like her?"
"On the contrary, not at all." I replied. "In fact, have you ever seen a man and a woman like us kissing? It's not pretty. Plus, human remains don't make for the best breath, especially with muscle tissue stuck between our teeth."
I saw him smile at my answer. He didn't want to but he did. He couldn't help it. He tried to recover back to his mad, but it didn't have the same effect. "I hope you're happy. Now I've just got you. And I'm not making out with you."
I laughed. "That's good since I think I have part of your spleen stuck in my goatee."
"No more disgusting than kissing that chick after you just swallowed her intestines."
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I sat on the ground next to my friend and waited for him to change. I've learned over the past several months that the time it takes to change is directly related to that person's IQ. I have seen it take as many as two days for someone to turn.
My best friend took thirty minutes.
When it was done, he looked up at me. "What happened?"
I wasn't sure exactly what to say. "It's not easy to explain."
"I remember...wait! You attacked me! Then you actually started to eat me."
I was embarrassed. But he was right. I did, in fact, eat him.
He was angry. "Why, man?"
"I don't know. I couldn't help it."
"You couldn't help but eat your best friend? First you disappear for months without telling me and now you just show back up and attack me?"
"You're sorry? Let me tell you...wait, I was on a date when you showed up. What happened to her? Did you eat her too?"
I couldn't quite look him in the eye. "No, she's over there." I nodded towards the alley.
"Is she okay?" he demanded.
"She's fine. But she may not be for long. See those guys over there?" He turned and looked. "I can't predict their intentions."
He brushed me off and walked towards her. The three guys that had her pinned scowled when he reached them but they backed off. "Are you okay?" he asked her.
She never got the opportunity to answer. Something in him snapped and he took a chunk out of her neck.
Over the next several weeks, I'll use my blog to write a short story, but I'll break it up into several posts over the those weeks. I've never done this before and it should be interesting as each time I write, I come from a different place. Experiences of the day or week play in to what I am feeling and what area within me I am reaching. I hope you check back and enjoy the process.
There comes a time in everyone's life when they have to tell the truth. That time for me is in this moment. I just ate my best friend. I don't mean my dog, I mean my best friend since childhood. I looked at him, recognized him, but then something came over me and I just ate him. You can call it peer pressure because others were there egging me on.
When I was done, I looked down at him (what was left of him) and I felt sorry for him. Not because he was dead, but because now he would be just like me. There are many names for people like me. I prefer the term Restless Dead. People with no imagination call people like me zombies. But that is so cliché. I mean, really? Zombie? Like I'm some mindless stiff walking around grunting the word "Brains!" over and over? Come on.
There are many others like me. I don't really know from where the first person like me came. I do remember the feeling of being eaten alive by another person. The helplessness. The horror of the moment. But it all turned out alright. After all, I'm still me, only more restless.